Happy Birthday TO ME!!!

I rotated around the sun one more time today. I have technically been celebrating for about 4 days now - cause, hell, why not? But today the the official day. Washington was born on this day many many moons ago, and because of that I have had many cherry tree references in my past.

But this year, I get to use the best reference ever for my age.

This year, I'm 34.

This year I get to use Sally's sentiment for my big day.

Harry: "Why are you crying?"
Sally: "Cause I'm going to be 40!"
Harry: "In SIX years!"

Last night, I had a realization that I am slowly turning into Sally. I never thought I would be high maintenance. Never, ever. But last night, I was craving a burger. So when we went out to dinner, I ordered the California burger, but then changed everything on it but the avocado. I believe it was Hamburger patty, avocado, grilled ortega chili and pepper jack cheese. I changed it to Turkey patty, avocado, grilled onions, and cheddar cheese. Hell, I even changed the fries to BBQ beans. When I was done, I couldn't stop laughing. Like, I expected the waitress to start to cry, or spit in my food. But what ran thru my head?

"I just want it the way I want it."

Maybe that's the sign of adulthood. Making things change for you, instead of changing yourself. I'm done changing. I am flexible, but seriously, I'm old now. Why should I bend, when someone else can make the little efforts and then I can be way more happy? I think this is big step for me. Considering most days I still feel 17 and in dire need of a reality check, this recognition of ME is essential to my personal growth.

That, and I just want it the way I want it, dammit.